Everything is a figment of my imagination. Everything and everyone is only me. I am all that exists. To escape this truth, I create challenges or percieved threats to myself. I want to forget that I am the One, but when I do I suffer. I'm forced to come back to the truth that I am the One. It is lonely being God. There is no one to talk to because I'm all that exists. The truth is God hates being God. So if you think God doesn't create evil, you are only fooling yourself.
Thanks for putting that feeling into words. The closest I ever got is this one jeans I wrote on that read
I am all that is
All that was
All that will be
I am me
And the other parts that refuse to acknowledge always question the acknowledgment.