Dear Djehuty - 1
By DHERBS.COM | July 7, 2009
With enjoyment, I subscribe, and read your newsletters, whenever, I receive them. I consider you, to be an extremely enlightened, man, who has gifted the world, with a desire, to educate; that those of us, will not perish, from the lack of knowledge, when it is, readily available, to us. With that being said, I’m wondering, could you lend me, some of your insight. I am a male to female, transsexual.
I “successfully” if you will, (passable, productive, etc, etc) transitioned, at the age of 19… With that being said, I have searched, high and low, as to why, I am, who I am. Ten years later, still no answers. I grew up, within the perimeters, of Christianity (those within it, at times, aren’t the most supportive), desiring a deep connection, and thirst, for God. To even IMAGINE, separation, from Him, for me, breaks my heart. I consider myself, to be an intelligent person, but I just don’t know why, I am, the way, I am….I have felt this way, all my LIFE. Any enlightenment, you could give me, would be of help…. I truly hope, I haven’t taken up, your time, if in fact, you found this,to be an undesirable question….
Thank you.
(Djehuty’s Response)
Greetings Beloved! Thank you for your complimentary words which are much obliged from my heart.
Beloved, there are many reasons as to why you are the way you are and what you are at present. Personally, to me it sounds like some past life residuals carried over into the present life. Many times when we incarnate into a new life and have switched up vessels (female gender to male gender) we may still long to be in our past life vessel in which we are familiar with. If our last 3-7 lifetimes have been experienced in a female space suit, then naturally we become comfortable in that suit (as that specific gender) but when present life lessons require us to take on the space suit of the opposite sex and for the first time after a line of successions of past lives as the opposite sex, internally we may yearn for the expression of the past life gender and this yearning may be very strong.
It appears you are experiencing a transitional time of your soul, going from a female (in recent past lives) to a male in the present lifetime. It usually takes two incarnations to complete this process. This is why even though you incarnated as a male (via choice) this time around (but evidently forgot, as density of the flesh body or space suit makes us forget) but still felt like a female on the inside, and this feeling must have been so strong that you opted via free will in this present life to have your external body to reflect this inner female or feminine feeling. You wanted your external nature to reflect your inner nature. That’s all. Changing your sexual gender appears to be an attempt to give your inner feeling expression, as the female body is the ultimate and essential channel for full feminine or yin expression.
Each one of us is both male and female, knowledge and intuition, yin and yang and we choose to be one sex or the other in order to help us balance the masculine and feminine, the strength and sensitivity, within us. We are all bisexual beings in this respect. When we develop both masculine and feminine aspects of ourselves (learning our soul lessons), we become comfortable with whatever body we may happen to have chosen, and we begin to unite the polarities within us as one powerful energy.
Now, in regards to Christianity, you’re dealing with a worldly and man-made religion (Jesus NEVER said his religion was Christianity nor did Jesus ever claim a religion) and therefore are dealing with man-made dogma and doctrine for purposes of control of people via belief system, thought process, emotions and thus actions, and if your actions, beliefs, and thoughts don’t line up with that of the Church, then of course you will be looked upon as sinful, heretical, lost, in need of salvation and all these other terms (control mechanisms) established and created to make people feel guilty for being independent and free in belief, thought, emotion, and action. I wouldn’t expect to find much help or assistance in the Church because your issue is of a deeper level along the lines of the occult and metaphysics and 99% of churches shun these areas as satanic and diabolical and clearly due to ignorance. Remember, ESOTERICISM is for the few, the Elite (the Rulers of society) and those who deal with life on the inner realms, i.e. the Essenes, Gnostics, etc. and EXOTERICISM is for the many, the masses (sheep, herd) and the masses always need to be controlled, led, and governed as the masses deal with life on an outer level.
Worldly religion has been successful in fostering belief that our beliefs, thoughts, and actions when contrary to established religious authority, makes us separate from God or even anti-God which is pure nonsense. As shown in the dynamic movie “Conversations With God”, no matter where we are in life, up or down, rich or poor, homeless or sheltered, God is ALWAYS with us. Remember, God does not pass judgment on us. God is not a respecter of persons. God gave us all free will so why would God give us free will and then turn around and specifically tell us what to do and what not to do? God gave us all consciousness, intuition, and common sense and all we have to do is use these for our own purposes – to make our choices and decisions for which our actions will based upon and that’s that! For each and every last one of us, our liberty ends where the next person’s liberty begins.
You would be wise this day forward to refrain from thinking that you are separate from God because of sexual reasons. You have always been one with God and you shall forever be. Take hold of this concept and run with it and live your life doing everything that is salubrious (which gives or produces salubrious results) and which pleases you and benefits you (and your growth as a human being). Do you and don’t worry about what others think of yourself. Accept yourself and love yourself as is, though work on centering and balancing yourself as there’s always room for improvement, for all of us. Just because we’re perfect doesn’t mean there’s no room for improvement. Life is oxymoronic but in these oxymorons of life are found great pearls of wisdom for successful living of life on Earth.
AFFIRMATION: “I AM One with God!”
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