Suicide

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People who contemplate suicide are people who are unconscious, ignorant, and may be depressed, despondent, lonely, or who feel guilty about something (an action).

Being Unconscious

People who contemplate suicide are unconscious because they are not aware that life cannot end. Life is everlasting and can never end. This present life you're experiencing now is not the first time you've been alive. You have lived many lives before now and will live many more after this life, however, perhaps not all on the Earth plane and/or perhaps not all in a flesh body. The flesh body may expire or terminate, but life itself (the soul) NEVER dies or expires. It can't! It's impossible. The problem with many people is that they have simply FORGOTTEN all of the above. Taking on flesh or a dense body makes us forget. But we have the power to RE-MEMBER. Past life information is very present and available for all of us if we learn to access it.

So why unwisely commit suicide and end the flesh body (vessel) that you incarnated in to learn specific life lessons? Just because you commit suicide doesn't mean the lessons are over. You can't escape life lessons that you intentionally chose in advance on the Other side (but forgot about due to life here in the Matrix and embracing its illusions) before incarnating or being born.

This is why I teach that suicide is futile, a waste of time (as far as the soul's progression is concerned here on the Third Dimension, a/k/a planet Earth). For if you take your own life, you have not done anything, you have not escaped from anything. You have just decided to re-incarnate back at a later time and undergo EVERY life event and similar circumstance that you underwent up until the time you committed suicide. You're just starting over when you commit suicide, meaning you're wasting time (the soul's progression in a flesh body). Instead of moving forward, you're moving backwards.

Upon your return to Earth life in another flesh body (if you commit suicide), you will have the same kind of parents as your last parents. You will experience every situation of your past life and if you mastered the lesson the last time around you'll simply move through it faster upon your return, but you'll go through it again nonetheless. You'll go through every situation or circumstance of your last life, with different characters fulfilling roles nonetheless, up until the point or time you committed suicide.

Again, suicide is not an escape. It is only a delay. It is like resetting the clock back to 12. It simply slows down the soul's progression. So what is a person accomplishing by committing suicide? No matter what, whatever that hurdle (problem) may be, it must be dealt with and crossed, and it will be (sooner or later), so why not cross it this time around, in this life, in this present body you have? Why not now?

There is no hurdle too big to cross! There is no life question too big to be answered. There is no problem too large to be solved. As Stevie Wonder said in one of my favorite childhood songs ("Have a Talk With God"): "If you feel your life is too hard, just go have a talk with God."

God is a free psychiatrist that doesn't charge any money and who has all the time in the world. God is the one with all the answers; so if it is answers you require, ask your question to the All Wise and All-Knowing One.

As my good friend Harold Acey says: "You can't get answers if you don't ask questions." Every answer is dependent upon the question.

Beloved, God is "the one who lives within" as Stevie sings in the song. Therefore, God is always there for you. Always! You just may have become disillusioned due to your life circumstances and feel that God has abandoned you but it is you who have abandoned the knowledge and knowing that God is within yourself and thus ALWAYS around for you. Life's circumstances can make us forget this truth. Taking hard drugs can make us forget this. Drinking the devil's alcohol can make us forget this.

If you believe God is in heaven, then God is within (you) because Jesus (Heru) states numerously in the Gospels that the "Kingdom of Heaven is WITHIN!"

Because God is within, you never have to make an appointment with God. God is never too busy for you or us. Never! You don't have to know how to pray or worry about what language to speak to God in. God does not care about your posture, your position, your form or format, etc. when praying to Him/Her. Just get in your closet (the closet of your heart, the closet of your mind) and pray (or talk to God). Just talk, because closed mouths don't get fed. If you have a problem and desire an answer - TALK! If you're lost and are seeking guidance - TALK! Open up and talk to your Maker and Creator!

Being Ignorant

When we are ignorant to the fact that every problem has an answer, we may contemplate suicide. Yes, EVERY problem has an answer. It's a mathematical law. Everything has its corresponding opposite. Everything! Dr. Norman Vincent Peale said it best when he said: "In every problem lies the seed of its own solution." Oh how so true!

Likewise with disease! Every disease has a cure or antidote and you find it in doing the opposite of what you did or were doing to become diseased in the first place. Cancer does not come from a bottle so you won't find a cure for cancer in a bottle. You just won't! Cancer is the result of a certain lifestyle, diet, and thought process and therefore won't be cured or healed until you change your diet, lifestyle, and thought process. You see, it's really not that difficult at all!

When you are ignorant to life's true purpose, you may attempt to take your own life or contemplate doing such. When you are ignorant that the soul is NOT the flesh body but just residing in the body, you may contemplate or attempt to take your own life.

Many people are lost and don't know why they are here on Earth or what they are here on Earth to do because they have yet to pay off past karmic debts. This is what is blocking them. When you begin to pay off karmic debts and learn your life's lessons, then everything becomes clear. You discover your true life's purpose (mission) here on Earth! This is true!

"Missions are revealed when karmic slates are clean. Consequently, many souls remain frustrated, for they understand intuitively that there is something they must do, but they cannot see the picture clearly when the veils are down and vagueness prevails. As soon as karmic debts are paid and Tests of Initiations are passed, missions are revealed." - Dr. Norma Milanovich

Being Depressed

Depressed individuals are oftentimes suicidal. To be depressed means to have your spirit deflated. Depressed people have a tremendous weight on their shoulders, the shoulders of their mind (which depresses the spirit), that is. When your foot chakras and crown chakra are unstable, the Soul can easily pass out of the body. Suicidal people usually have unstable foot and crown chakras meaning they are unstable materially and unstable spiritually.

Depression is rampant in the Western world today, especially in the United States, and especially amongst females. Depression is also the result of the perception of lack of love, joy, good health, passion, inspiration, hope, purpose, creativity, zest, ambition, willpower, sense of being, self-esteem, high self-image, and a host of other things.

Depression is usually the precursor to suicide which again, should never be committed because you sentence yourself back to Earth and right back to the same exact circumstances up until the time of suicide as there's no escaping your life's lesson that you chose to incarnate for, but forgot once you took on the dense flesh body. I have to drive this point home.

Loss of something (i.e. of a loved one, prestigious position, a possession, etc.) can also lead to depression. Depression is a form of emotional wounding and it is the depth of emotional wounding that determines the depth of the depression.

Depression means your spirit is depressed and needs inflating and it is only inspiration stemming from love (especially self-love, love of life, love of purpose, etc.) that can inflate the spirit.

Alcohol and drugs feed depression. This includes pharmaceutical drugs (medication). In fact, antidepressant medication such as Prozac and Valium actually cause suicidal tendencies according to independent research and studies.

Prozac is now being prescribed to young American females for their menstrual complaints. You can expect teen suicides to increase even more in the near future.

It is stated and projected that Depression will be the second largest killer after heart disease by 2020 -- and studies show depression is a contributory factor to fatal coronary disease.

The year 2020 is just right around the corner. Somebody in government knows something. You should be able to see the signs on the wall of our changing world. The constant hikes in gas prices reflect this at present. Everything is going up in the United States, except for pay rises on the job, so the standard of living for many Americans will undoubtedly decrease and I'm sure it will foster feelings of depression for many.

I have personally found that in all the depressed persons I have met with and counseled that most if not all of their chakras were closed or imbalanced.

Depression is not so bad since it is a state that comes and goes based upon life circumstances and events that impact us on an emotional level. At some point in our lives, we all have felt depressed. Maybe a loved one died. Maybe we lost a job. Maybe a relationship ended. Maybe we don't like how we look. Based upon the above circumstances that happen every single day here in the U.S. with people collectively, I feel it is safe to say that depression is a part of our lives.

Now the true problem with depression is when depression becomes chronic. Chronic depression is something one would need to be concerned about because it is chronic depression that fosters thoughts of suicide. From my observations, chronic depression is based upon lifestyle. People who are chronically depressed live a certain lifestyle in chronic fashion, doing the same thing over and over or consistently, i.e. thinking negative (that they're worthless, not loved, have no value), feeling sorry for themselves, sleeping long hours throughout the day, staying inside shut of from society, or popping pills and/or drinking booze. You are bound to be depressed if you consistently think depressed-filled thoughts. Depressed thoughts lead to depression.

I consult a lot of women and many of them are depressed. A lot of White women are depressed out there, but not to the degree that African-American women are. Many Black women are depressed. I find the age to start around the early 20's. Many of the factors deal with perception of lack of love, self-image and self-esteem issues (as many are obese or grotesquely overweight), lifelong abuse, and outright emotional imbalance. I would have to say from my personal experience the number one reason or cause for this depression is in the area of love pertaining to relationships. Black male-female relationships in the U.S. are a very troubled thing. There's plenty of sex, but hardly no real, true, genuine love. Babies are being made, but not commitments. We are getting together, but marriages are not taking place. Sixty percent (60%) of African-American women are unmarried. Forty percent (40%) have never been married. Seventy percent (70%) of African-American households are led by single Black women. The statistics and facts speak pretty clearly to me and I can see how the above plays a role in chronic depression for many African-American women, especially those women who desire true love, to be married, to be a wife, to have a father for their children. This whole subject here is actually another topic and subject for me to cover at a later time here at Dherbs.Com and I will most definitely cover it.

A lot of these African-American women who are depressed have calcified pineal glands due to the Westernized diet they unwisely consume. They are not secreting adequate amounts of pineal hormones such as serotonin and melatonin.

Serotonin keeps you feeling happy and melatonin keeps you young and looking young. I notice how a lot of Black women I run across (especially in the urban areas or inner cities), those in their 20's and 30's, are seldom happy creatures, always got a frown on their face or who just look mean and mad (and understandably so when you understand life circumstances for them here in the U.S., especially pertaining to their relationships with Black men) and who look very aged due to hard living and constant negative emotion that has impressed upon their face. It is true that how you feel determines how your face will mold. Many women just have an angry looking face because they were constantly angry due to constantly thinking angry thoughts and having an angry attitude.

And I know a lot of young African-American females live at the nightclub and just live the nightlife and the nightlife is just not a healthy life to lead and live. It's not wise to be out in the wee hours of the night on a consistent basis because that's when the body (1) repairs itself, and (2) melatonin, an anti-aging hormone, is secreted most. And you have many sisters (Black females) out during this time drinking hard liquor, eating junk food, doing drugs, and other insalubrious things when they should be at home getting their beauty sleep. Healthy sleep naturally beautifies us; that's why we have a thing called "beauty sleep." Failure to get adequate amounts of sleep and being in tune with nature can cause you to prematurely age and look ugly. This is very true! Leading and living a hard life will most definitely imprint upon your face, especially for females.

The above is not exclusive to just Black women or African-American women but applies to women of all races and nationalities and I witness the above in many of these ladies of different races and nationalities as well, from Caucasian (American and European), Middle Eastern, and Asian. No one is immune from the laws of Nature! Blacks may do it more, but still, others are also doing it.

Being Lonely

I remember hearing Reverend Jerome Fisher of Little Zion Baptist Church in Compton, California talk about depression in relation to loneliness and how I agreed with his words he spoke during a particular Sunday service. He was on the money when he said many people contemplate suicide due to plain ole loneliness.

Loneliness is a major reason many people contemplate and actually commit suicide. But loneliness is nothing more than natural aloneness inverted. When we feel lonely, it's because we don't truly know ourselves, and so we need others or at least we think we need others to make us feel whole or complete. We must realize that if we feel lonely, we are lacking the sense of aloneness and must work on getting back to this natural state. Yes, aloneness is natural and even our birthright. Consider the eloquent words of the world's greatest spiritual mystic, Osho:

"We are born alone, we live alone, and we die alone. Aloneness is our very nature, but we are not aware of it. Because we are not aware of it we remain strangers to ourselves, and instead of seeing our aloneness as a tremendous beauty and bliss, silence and peace, at-easeness with existence, we misunderstand it as loneliness.

Lonelines is misunderstood aloneness. Once you misunderstand your aloneness as loneliness, the whole context changes. Aloneness has a beauty and a grandeur, a positivity; loneliness is poor, negative, dark, dismal. Loneliness is a gap. Something is missing, something is needed to fill it, and nothing can ever fill it because it is misunderstanding in the first place. As you grow older, the gap also grows bigger. People are so afraid to be by themselves that they do any kind of stupid thing. I have seen people playing cards alone; the other party is not there. They have invented games in which the same person plays cards from both sides.

Those who have known aloneness say something absolutely different. They say there is nothing more beautiful, more peaceful, more joyful than being alone. The ordinary man goes on trying to forget his loneliness, and the meditator starts getting more and more acquainted with his aloneness. He has left the world; he has gone to the caves, to the mountains, to the forest, just for the sake of being alone. He wants to know who he is. In the crowd, it is difficult; there are so many disturbances. And those who have known their aloneness have known the greatest blissfulness possible to human beings - because your very being is blissful. After being in tune with your aloneness, you can relate; then your relationship will bring great joys to you, because it is not out of fear.

Finding your aloneness you can create, you can be involved in as many things as you want, because this involvement will not anymore be running away from yourself. Now it will be your expression; now it will be the manifestation of all that is your potential. But the first basic thing is to know aloneness absolutely. So I remind you, don't misunderstand aloneness as loneliness. Loneliness is certainly sick; aloneness is perfect health. Your first and most primary step toward finding the meaning and significance of life is to enter into your aloneness. It is your temple; it is where your God lives, and you cannot find this temple anywhere else." - Osho, Love, Freedom, Aloneness: The Koan of Relationships, 178-179

The Impact of Suicide on Other People

Suicide is a very negatively selfish act because the act doesn't just harm one person, but many persons. You see, just because you don't feel loved doesn't actually mean you are not loved. This could just simply be your perception. You have to remember that people love differently or show their love in different ways. If you create a standard of love and that standard is not met, you are bound to feel that you are not loved, so the wise thing to do would be to remove the standard and do your best to embrace unconditional love. Unconditional love is where it's at!

Suicide adversely impacts more than just the person who ended his or her own life. It impacts the parents (mother and father), siblings, relatives, offspring, and friends and perhaps a community. This is why suicide creates grand scale karma and when you transition to the next realm after killing your flesh body you will be made to feel the pain you selfishly caused others because no act goes unpunished (and I mean punished in the sense that you are made to feel everything you dished out to another in accordance pursuant to the law of karma). Consider the following:

"Turning our attention specifically to suicides, "between-lives" hypnotherapist Michael Newton observes, "While all suicides cases are treated with kindness and understanding [on the other side], people who kill themselves with a healthy body do have a reckoning." Lysa Mateu channeled Alexy, who pointed out that this self-judgment can be severe: 'One of the things with suicide is that we have to pay the price for our faulty deed. We have broken our agreement. We have not been faithful to our word and must be punished, not punished in the way you know punished to be, punished as in feeling and seeing the consequences of our actions and the impact those actions had on those still living.'" - Pamela Rae Heath, Suicide, What Really Happens in the Afterlife, pg. 124

The life review aspect of death is no joke. You are made to feel everything, good and bad, you ever made others feel. Though not totally accurate, but we got a glimpse of the life-review aspect of death (or transitioning) in the movie "Defending Your Life" starring Albert Brooks and Meryl Streep.

Suicide is against the natural law of life because Earth is all about life and growth and suicide prematurely ends that under some illusion. There's no growth in suicide. The growth only comes from life.

Suicide is a very negatively selfish act because it brings pain, heartache, grief, and sorrow to others. I had three aunts who committed suicide as suicide ran in my mother's side of the family.

My Personal Experience With Suicide As A Child

The death of my aunt, Shirley Maxwell, greatly impacted my family and especially the children (nieces and nephews), but none more than myself (aside from my mother). A part of my mother died when Shirley killed herself on her 27th birthday back in September 1976, firing a gun into her own heart. Shirley was young, very attractive, and sweet, but greatly depressed and drugs and alcohol (and perception of lack of love) played a major role in her suicide.

I was so confused as a little boy as to why would a person take his or her own life. The lies the children (my cousins, siblings, and myself) would be told about Shirley's death would not help matters either, especially with myself, already adverse to Christianity by age six due to the faulty representation of Christianity by my overly devout Christian Grandmother who infuriated me because she loved Christianity more than her own children.

What infuriated me the most was my grandmother's warped understanding and teaching of a religion she was in her whole life. We were taught that you only saw God when you died. We (children, grandchildren of my maternal grandmother) were forbidden to listen to Stevie Wonder's song "Have A Talk With God" after September 1976 because we were told that this particular song makes you kill yourself (and clearly this is what attracted me to the song in addition to me just liking the song, especially the music).

Well, turns out aunt Shirley was constantly listening to this song during her state of chronic depression. It was common for my aunts (most of whom were depressed) to play music and certain songs repeatedly in their states of depression and inebriation.

You see, my aunts all killed themselves in attempts to reach out to God but because of their warped understanding of Christianity (Thanks to Mother Dear), they believed they had to physically die in order to talk to God. They just wanted and needed guidance and didn't know how to rightly go about it.

It also didn't help that my aunts were also very impressionable because my mother told me that Shirley became obsessed with killing herself after seeing the movie "Sparkle." I guess that casket scene with 'Lonette McKee' as the character 'Sister' resonated with my aunt. It was no secret that aunt Shirley had talked about her death in advance too (and clearly planned it as well); however, nobody took her seriously. Life seemed swell for her, well, at least to us looking from the outside in.

I remember being in the car one day with my mother and aunt Shirley (who were the best of friends) and hearing my mother talk to Shirley about her upcoming birthday party and Shirley unequivocally told my mother, "Bonnie, I won't be here!" I guess my mother thought Shirley was going somewhere, geographically, but on September 27, 1976, Shirley did go away, but not geographically.

What angered me the most about Shirley's death was that on the day of her death, Shirley was actually on the phone pleading with my grandmother just to talk to her and my grandmother was so into her religion and futile prayer that she couldn't even take the time out to talk to her despondent and depressed daughter to even save her life. I discovered this listening to my mother and grandmother on the phone arguing about Shirley's death shortly after Shirley's death. I was supposed to hear that conversation for purposes of my own life mission and purpose here. I remember my mother saying to her mother: "Madea, that girl just needed someone to talk to and you couldn't talk to her because she was interrupting your prayer time." That's all I needed to hear and my deep but subtle hatred for my maternal grandmother (and her religion) was sealed. Damn! Shirley was dead because she had no one to talk to her, not even her own mother.

I consciously remember going in to my backyard by myself a few days after the news of Shirley's death and looking up to the heavens and saying to God, "When I get older, God, I will always be there to talk to people." I had no idea at age 6 of the depths of this proclamation and how I was putting my life's work out in the Universe at the tender age of 6. But this is what I did.

Getting back to the events surrounding Shirley's death, so in order to have a talk with God, Shirley shot herself. A part of the maternal side of my family died with Shirley that fateful day in 1976.

Instead of being told the truth that we would never see Shirley again in the flesh in this present lifetime on Earth, we (children) were lied to and told Shirley went on a vacation and would return in the future. We were also told that if we looked into the sky we would see her casket float up to heaven. Being young and naïve I believed this because it came from someone I trusted, my beloved mother, and a perfectly trained seal of my grandmother, like most of her other 12 children.

I wasted a whole week of recess and lunchtime at school due to constantly looking up into the sky so as to see Shirley's casket float up to heaven. I never saw it though I fooled myself into believing that I did. I should have known something wasn't right when I told my mother this and she had a strange look on her face. But hell, I was only six years of age.

After a few months, life returned to normal somewhat for my family though my mother was really never the same after Shirley's death and she went into a mild depression that manifested into chronic depression and a severe nervous breakdown in 1982. My mother's nervous breakdown was so severe that she completely lost her mind and didn't know who she or her children were which was devastating to my siblings and I.

Another Suicide in the Family

We had a good six years of good times between the Coopers (father's side of the family) and Maxwells until early 1982 when we got word that my aunt, Wanda Maxwell, only age 19, had committed suicide. Damn! Another suicide and carried out in the same fashion as Shirley six years prior, a gunshot wound to the heart. I thought to myself, "how could Wanda kill herself when she had a baby daughter?" Aunt Shirley too had a daughter at the time of her death. These women just didn't care about the ramifications of their actions.

Wanda had been depressed at the tender age of 18 and by age 19 ended her own life. I remembered vividly Wanda getting dressed for her sister's funeral back in 1976 and six years later we were all getting dressed for Wanda's funeral.

After Wanda's suicide in 1982 I knew something was wrong with the Maxwell side of my family, they had a death curse or something. These people (women) were not emotionally stable at all. They were very attractive women but emotionally unstable and would go through all sorts of mood swings. I noticed this in all of my maternal aunts and including my mother.

I lost a part of my childhood due to these suicides because I couldn't help worrying about if my mother would kill herself while at home alone. It really helped back then that we resided right across the street from my elementary school, 107th Street Elementary School, the back part of it, as we resided at 155 East 105th Street in South Los Angeles.

Many days I would not play with my friends, just concentrating at looking through the fence at our home. Sometimes I would have thoughts of seeing an ambulance at our residence and bringing my mother out on a gurney.

Other times I waited in anticipation of hearing a gunshot coming from our home. But deeper than these thoughts was the desire in my heart for God to not let my mother die from killing herself. That would have devastated me at that age. I was thankful everyday that I came home from school to find my mother alive. I really got close to God as a child through all of this as dysfunctional as it was. I've always had a strong God connection in this life looking back on my childhood.

More Suicide in My Family

We got through a good 23 years with no suicides in the family though there were plenty of deaths including both of my beloved parents (to cancer), my beloved paternal grandmother (old age), my favorite cousin, Kevin Cooper (homicide), three paternal uncles (all to cancer), two maternal uncles (cancer and a heart attack), a host of young paternal cousins (all to cancer except one, the 'victim' of homicide), and some dear friends (homicide, senseless violence).

But in 2005, the mark of death via suicide was back. This time, my aunt, Terry Maxwell, was the one. Terry had been depressed and heavily drinking devil's brew on Sunday night. Her stupid boyfriend, instead of keeping her from drinking, went to the store to buy more beer for the both of them only to come back and find Terry dead from a gunshot wound to the heart. That's right, to the heart!

Keep in mind, all three of my aunts killed themselves by shooting themselves in the heart, like under some imbedded or subconscious program.

By this time in my life, I was on the path I am on now and so news of Terry's death didn't impact me like the other two did. I knew Terry had been drinking liquor and had always done drugs in her life and ate bad so I knew this was the consequence of living such a life. Terry had a host of kids too, who unfortunately ended up in foster care as state property until family members adopted them. Terry must have had at least eight or nine children.

I didn't attend Terry's funeral, making up my mind in 1999 after my mother's funeral to not attend funerals anymore because I found them to be unhealthy and they impacted my dreams to the point I could feel how my parents felt during their bouts with cancer. I felt what they felt and would wake up greatly impacted. The dreams were nightmarish at all, but very impactful. I felt their incapacitation and pain and it was horrible.

How could they choose to go out like that? Worse, how could they have chosen to live the way they did? They were actually just like everybody else (unconscious) and did the same things other people did, but to me, it was a foreign and insalubrious way of life. So foreign, that since 1999 I have cut my family off, accepting them as life long degenerates in this Matrix (though I love all of them, just from a far).

Every blue moon I will speak to my little bother and sister, but that's it. I haven't seen or spoken to my oldest brother, Derrick, since December 2000. Strangely, I don't miss any of them. The past memories are all I need (and music as well as television shows and movies from the 1970's helps me to go back down memory lane and have a blast).

Those days will never come back. I had some really great times with my family and friends, especially my family (my childhood cousins), but damn, those days are history and all I have now are memories.

I lead and live a new life now and I have children of my own and I know it would not be healthy for them to commingle with their family members from my side of the family because they still do the same degenerate things they were doing back in the 1970's, 1980's, and 1990's and are proud of it.

I shared the above to make a point about how suicide impacts more than just the person committing suicide. The cousins of my aunts who committed suicides had rough upbringings living with my maternal grandmother and their fathers. There was physical abuse, sexual molestation, and other kinds of negative things. I always felt sorry for these female cousins of mine. Only one really made something of herself in this Matrix and that was Makeisha Ely, sole daughter of Shirley Maxwell, the first of the Maxwells in California to go and graduate from college. I believe she now resides in North Carolina. I last saw her at my mother's funeral back in 1999. My mother became her mother after her mother died. She was actually more like a sister to us than a cousin.

The Metaphysics of Suicide

There's a metaphysical side to suicide. Suicide is a perfectly healthy phenomenon when you properly understand it and commit it on the RIGHT level.

Let's look at the word - SUICIDE! It's two words: Sui + Cide. Sui is Latin for "self" and "cide" is a suffix that means, "to kill" (as in homicide, infanticide, etc.). So suicide means, 'to kill one's self' or 'to kill the self.'

Now think about it, what is the Self? Is the Self your flesh body, or is the Self your Soul, or Spirit, or the Ego?

You see, suicide cannot relate to the killing of the physically body or shell because the flesh part of us is not the Spirit, Soul, or the Ego! The flesh only houses the Spirit, the Soul, and the Ego.

Now what is the Self? Is it the Spirit, the Ego? Research will help us to understand that the Self relates to the Ego and there is lower Ego and higher Ego. You see, "sui" means "self" and "spiritus" means "Spirit." It's called 'suicide', not 'spiriticide.' This gives us a hint that what we are talking about with 'suicide' is the EGO and not the soul or spirit.

Consider the English words "egotistical" and "egoist." They mean "the practice of talking and thinking about oneself excessively" and "an ethical theory that treats self-interest as the foundation of morality" respectively. In both definitions we find the word "self" so self pertains to the Ego.

It is natural for all of us as humans to go through an INWARD or INTERNAL ritual whereby we kill the lower ego, the false self, because it is the ego (lower ego) that gets in the way of our true spiritual state of being.

We are dealing with the 'Lower Self' that must give way to the 'Higher Self.' The mundane must give way to the spiritual. The lower must give way to the higher, so there comes a time in us whereby we don't like the old us (or Self) and want to get rid of it, want to kill it, want it to die; but when we are confused and imbalanced (due to consuming drugs and liquor, not being in the right frame of mind due to thinking or thought process or chronic depression) we will make the mistake of acting out an inner self or internal ritual of killing the false or lower self, EXTERNALLY, and kill the illusion of what we have been taught to identify with as the true self - the flesh!

This is why truly spiritual persons never kill themselves because they know that their flesh body is only an illusion, that it is not their true self. Spiritual persons know they are spiritual beings undergoing a physical experience and not the other way around. You are not killing the Soul, Spirit, or Ego when you kill the flesh body.

The above is taught in the Eastern world and in non-civilizations. They know this truth and that's why suicide is pretty much nonexistent in these places around the world, but in the material-oriented Western world, suicide is rampant. People in Western nations (so-called civilization) will commit suicide over losing a lover or relationship, losing a job, losing money (like during the Great Depression when the International bankers stole the American people's money), or due to being depressed.

Here in the U.S., judges commit suicide, professional athletes commit suicide, actors and actresses commit suicide, politicians commit suicide, lawyers commit suicide, teachers and educators commit suicide, and religious leaders commit. Teenagers commit suicide. Prisoners commit suicide. We are quick to end human life here in the Western world and the biggest reason is due to lack of spirituality.

Suicidals really only want to kill a part of themselves (their lives) that they don't like and is not healthy for them and want to get rid of, but in error, they kill the vessel (flesh body) that only host or houses this aspect of their being that they want to get rid of. They are errantly physically acting out an inward or internal ritual of killing a part of themselves they don't like. This is the real tragedy of suicide - an erroneous understanding of an inner self-dynamic or ritual that is carried out on the external.

When we feel we want to die, we really don't want our lives to end, only just a part that we don't like. We may be on drugs and/or alcohol, may have lived a scandalous existence, we may have lived a life whereby we harmed people, or did things we are ashamed of, and there comes a time where we want to be far away from this type of existence and lifestyle.

Also, we may be in deep pain over something, perhaps life events and/or circumstances and want that pain to go away forever so in an unbalanced and unstable state, we think that by killing the flesh body we can get that pain to go away, but that's impossible because of what we have to experience in the life-review part when we actually die or transition. Again, you don't escape ANYTHING! And this is why I'm advocating dealing with whatever it is you may be going through at present no matter how difficult it may appear. Suicide should never cross our minds.

Suicide makes the statement that we gave up, we're too impatient and/or lazy to find the answers and solutions to our problems, too impatient to wait on God while doing our necessary part in the scheme of things, and just outright unconscious and ignorant of how life works.

When a person commits suicide, they impact their Soul and the trauma of suicide is imprinted in the auric body or biomagnetic sheath (etheric body) and the next flesh body of the next lifetime is built from this blueprint and so if unconscious (or remaining unconscious) in subsequent lives to this etheric programming, suicide could become a routine thing with a particular person continuously committing suicide until that program is acknowledged and removed through some form of healing (i.e. past life regression therapy, hypnotherapy).

Clearing the Record on Famous Suicides

I feel it very important to clear up some falsities about certain infamous suicides that were given to us by government. Many so-called suicides, especially in the U.S., were outright murders (hits, assassinations) to silence people who could have shed light on certain political things and exposed corrupt individuals hiding in high places.

Marilyn Monroe did not commit suicide. She was murdered! And all because she was scheduled to go public 3 days before her death (murder) and expose her affairs with the Kennedy brothers, President John and brother Bobby, and certain mob figures. She was going to reveal secrets obtained from pillow talk she had on these players. Marilyn was killed by an enema (which is why she was found in the nude and face down on a bed). Kennedy brother-in-law Peter Lawford validated this upon his death (on his deathbed) stating that, "Marilyn took her last big enema!" Again, she was murdered; she did not commit suicide! Do the research for yourself and you will come to the same conclusion.

The 913 mostly Black persons and followers of the Rev. Jim Jones (on November 18, 1978) in the jungles of Guyana, were murdered in a failed C.I.A. MK-ULTRA mind control experiment. The murders (of the White Night) were made to look like a mass suicide to hide C.I.A. involvement. Jim Jones escaped death and the FBI found a tape after the murders that contained Jones' voice talking about the aftermath of the murders. Jim Jones himself was a C.I.A. operative.

Adolf Hitler, Nazi leader, did not commit suicide; he escaped death and lived out the remainder of his life as a businessman in Argentina, South America, dying in 1983, according to Mae Brusell.

Gary Webb, writer/reporter, did not commit suicide. He was murdered (C.I.A. hit).

Danny Casolaro, investigative reporter, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Vince Foster, Clinton White House Aid, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

John Belushi, actor/comedian, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Freddy Prinze, Sr., actor/comedian, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Dorothy Dandridge, actress, did not commit suicide. She was murdered.

Lenny Bruce, comedian, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Janis Joplan, singer, did not commit suicide. She was murdered.

Kurt Cobain, singer, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Jimi Hendrix, musician, did not commit suicide (or die from an accidental drug overdose). He was murdered.

Monika Dannemann, girlfriend of Jimi Hendrix, did not commit suicide. She was murdered after breaking her 25+ years silence on Jimi's murder, she was about to speak publicly. NOTE: I believe she's a suspect in Jimi's murder as an accessory.

Paul Williams, singer ('The Temptations'), did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

Abbie Hoffman, political activist, did not commit suicide. He was murdered.

David Ferry, scientist, did not commit suicide. He was murdered. He was going to give up important information about President Kennedy's assassination.

Have you ever wondered why so many alleged suicide victims are discovered dead and in the "nude", i.e. John Belushi, Lenny Bruce, Dorothy Dandridge, Marilyn Monroe, Danny Casolaro, et al? This is a sign, a code.

NOTE: Please do not e-mail me asking for my sources (or authorities) to the above. Please do YOUR own research if you're really interested in knowing the facts and truth. The resources are out there and can be found in book store (especially metaphysical and new age bookstores) categories such as "Conspiracy," "Speculation," "History," and 'Revisionist History." Dherbs.Com lists certain resources in our "Alternative Diet and Lifestyle" manual e-book. Also, look for works by Mae Brussell, John Judge, Jim Marrs, Ralph Epperson, Michael Meiers, Jim Keith, Dick Gregory, Anthony Summers, Alex Constantine, Jon Rappaport, et al.

Also, in my research into famous people who committed suicide, I was shocked to discover that nearly half of the list comprised entertainers and a third were actors and actresses. This caused me to think. Why do so many actors and actresses commit suicide, I asked myself, and as I looked at things from a metaphysical perspective, the answer came to me.

Art reflects life and the theatre or drama mask shows one face smiling and the other crying (giving us 'comedy' and 'tragedy'). Many actors and actresses unfortunately cannot draw the line between life and reality. Many lose their own lives due to getting embroiled in the lives of concocted characters and/or their own superficial Hollywood-created lives. Many also lead trivial lives, lives with no substance. Underneath a surface happiness or a façade of happiness is a heart-filled sadness and depression, an emptiness; an emptiness that they attempt to fill up with drugs, liquor, and sex (like what was seen in 1979 Bette Midler movie "The Rose".

The above are the reasons why you hear about so many modern day actors and actresses getting arrested for drug use (i.e. Tatum O'Neal, Gary Durden, et al), driving under the influence (i.e., Nick Nolte), being addicted to drugs (i.e. Nicole Ritchie, Drew Barrymore, Robert Downey Jr., et al), being addicted to alcohol (i.e. Gary Busey, Lynda Carter), sex addiction (i.e. Karrine Steffans), contemplating suicide (i.e. Halle Barry), outright committing suicide, and overdosing on drugs (i.e. Dana Plato).

The above is also true of entertainers and professional athletes in general. Most actors, actresses, entertainers, and professional athletes do not have strong spiritual bases and foundations to handle the pressures of celebrity fame, fortune, and success in the Matrix. Many make the mistake of identifying with their false image (and fame, notoriety, and success) and when the limelight goes out (career ends), they interpret this as their real life being turned off or going out as well.

Successful entertainers, especially actors and actresses, are called stars for a reason. Not only do stars shine bright, but also they all eventually burn out and fall. We call this "five minutes of fame under the sun." This type of life and lifestyle is temporary at best. It doesn't feed the soul (unless the work is used to shed light and foster consciousness on the planet).

When a celebrity unwisely identifies with the false or Hollywood life, when this life (career) ends and they are not prepared to let it go and make the necessary transition to life after celebrity, they may see their entire life (the real life) as being over as well.

Many give their entire lives and mind to their art and profession and its all they think they know how to do, so when a career is over, they can't cope with reality and in many cases depression sets in. They feel they are no longer important, have value, are loved and liked, etc. But hell, their feeling of being important, loved, liked, value, etc. is mostly an illusion anyway. It's just a simple fact of life in the Matrix that people love you (actually 'lust you') when you're on top and hate you when you're down. Also, it is totally normal for people on top (successful) to be torn down and brought asunder in this society. It's called "The Pedestal Syndrome." You have seen this with Michael Jackson, Mike Tyson, Britanny Spears, O.J. Simpson, and many others. This is what people do in the Matrix. They build you up only to tear you down and spiritual mystic, Osho, brilliantly explains this whole phenomenon:

"Don't demonstrate yourself. If you demonstrate in public, in broad daylight, you will be punished by man. This has to be understood: when you become a demonstrator, a showman, when your life becomes a circus, an exhibition, people will appreciate you because you are falling victim to their whims, to their expectations. They will applaud you, but this is not going to last very long. Sooner or later they will start feeling your lies, because how long can you carry a lie? It shows, and when they start feeling your lies they will punish you. Look at Richard Nixon: that happens to everybody who becomes a showman. First they applaud you. Now you have become a victim. Just to get their applause you will lie more and more. You will start fulfilling their expectations and you will become more and more unreal. This is a vicious circle. And the more unreal you become, the more they will be bale to see that you are lying. Then they will start punishing you.

Whenever others appreciate you, beware; you are moving on a dangerous path. Sooner or later they will punish you. When people talk about your success, beware; now failure is not far off. When they put you on the throne, escape, because sooner or later they will throw you off. But you are so foolish and stupid that you never see the fact that somebody else is there on the throne before you. They put him there, and now for you they have thrown him off. Now they are garlanding and welcoming you, but sooner or later they will find another showman and they will throw you out. This happens to everybody who lives through public opinion. Don't ask for any success in the outside world and you will not have any failure. Don't ask people to respect you, then there will be no insult.

Chuang Tzu says: Be the last, so nobody can push you further back. Don't move to the front of the queue because then everybody will be your enemy and sooner or later they will punish you.

Everything has its opposite with it: if they appreciate you they will punish you, if they respect you they will insult you. What is the mechanism of it? When somebody respects you, he feels insulted deep down - deep down he has become inferior to you. So how can he forgive? He cannot. Someday the accounts will have to be put right. When he bowed down and touched your feet, that very moment a deep wound happened within him: he was lower than you. Now he will have to prove that he is not. Someday he will prove that he is higher than you. Try to understand the inner mechanism: accounts have to be settled, you cannot go on with an imbalance. Whenever you appreciate somebody, at that very moment, if you are alert, you can find inside that you would also like to insult him. Only a time gap is needed. Sooner or later it will come up. A man who is wise never asks for your appreciation. When you come with garlands for him, he says, "Stop here and now, because later I will have to pay." - Osho, "When the Shoe Fits", pgs. 51-53

A lot of entertainers live very superficial lives. In doing this, they neglect their soul. When the Soul is malnourished, it begins to crave spiritual nourishment. A desire for the superficial life to end in many cases causes thoughts of contemplation of actual physical death due to ignorance and unconsciousness of what's really going on. The Higher Self wants to express itself but first the Lower Self (lower Ego) must die, be killed, hence "suicide," the appropriate suicide - the killing of the lower or false self, the killing of the ego (or lower or negative ego).

Solutions to Contemplation of Suicide

Since suicide is the killing of one's self (actually flesh body) due to self- agreement to hate self, make the choice to make an agreement to LOVE self! Simply think about all of the good things you've ever done in your life and start here. Only think about the good you've done as well as all the good things people have said about you. If no one has said anything good about you or you can't remember, simply say something good about yourself TODAY! Today, this moment, is all you have, so start here!

Know that you are loved by God and always have been regardless of the life you have lived up until this moment. There is no time you are ever separated from God. None! When you are on the bottom, God is there. When you are on top, God is there. This was the moral of the great movie "Conversations With God." If you are depressed and feel that you are at the bottom of your life, watch this movie. It will speak to you. Many times, being at the bottom means being at the beginning. It's a starting point, and actually, the best one.

Also know that you were born with guardian angels and a spirit guide to serve you here on this plane. Believe it! You don't hear about or read about angels in religious texts and scriptures for nothing. They are real, just unseen due to their vibration. But nevertheless, they exist and they are here to serve you in any matter, situation, or life circumstance. However, because they are programmed to respect 'free will' of human beings, you have to summons them. You have to ask them for help for every situation. Everything must be specified to them. You can't say, 'Help me for my entire life.' They deal with specificity, so if you need financial assistance, specifically ask for it, i.e. "Angels of abundance and prosperity, please help me to obtain or receive the $500 I need to pay my rent."

Now remember, after asking, you have to be open (receptive) because the money can and usually will come in ways least expected. Don't ask for help and then turn around and doubt the existence of angels and/or them helping you. Belief is the key because belief magnifies and fortifies.

Also, contact a suicide hotline! If what you get from one of these hotlines does not suffice for you, especially spiritually, call us here at Dherbs.Com at 866-434-3727. We are not a suicide hotline, but we do talk to people (every single day) about a plethora of things and we can delve into all levels: physical, emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, social, etc. It doesn't matter. We are well versed and qualified. If you can't get through to us immediately for any reason, leave us a message and we are guaranteed to return your phone call as soon as possible. Just hold on to dear life! Don't worry about money and/or time. Your life is way more valuable and important to us than any of these. Make the call, if necessary, leave a message, and again, hang on to dear life waiting for our call. It can save your life.

A few years ago, a young lady was planning to take her life by taking pills and alcohol. Her mind was made up. However, she ran into a friend of hers one day and my name and my Full Body Detox came up. This news inspired her. She decided to delay her suicide until she met with me. It took three days to get her in for the meeting (consultation) due to my hectic schedule. I didn't have a clue that she was suicidal until about two hours into our conversation. It was around 7 p.m. when she told me of her plan to kill herself. Then she told me that our meeting was the only thing that she had to look forward to in her life and also was the only reason she had not gone ahead with killing herself.

We spoke for another two hours (a total of four), I put her on the Full Body Detox (because she was on drugs and alcohol and it was in her system), and we talked every other two or three days just to check in with each other.

I am happy to state that she made it! She pulled through and is alive and well. In fact, we have become friends. I check in with her every now and then.

You know, it was so amazing to me that this young lady, only 25, very, very attractive and gorgeous, talented, very sweet and kind, very loving, had a nice job, drove a BMW, had a nice wardrobe, etc. was going to end it all. She had everything on the mundane that a woman could want, but greatly lacked on the inner plane. She was imbalanced. You see, you can't feed the spiritual side with material food (desires). You must feed your spiritual side with spiritual food. You cannot feed the material side and then starve the spiritual side and think there will be no repercussions. We live in two worlds simultaneously and both worlds have laws that must be obeyed. Both desires must be fed. We are not to neglect either side. We are to be balanced.

In conclusion, detoxify your body. The great thing about Dherbs.Com Full Body Detox is that it has a spiritual effect upon a person. The cleansing taps into the spiritual realm and you can feel it. It is very important that you cleanse your tissues and cells of toxins lodged within them. Toxicity and an acidic state lower our vibration. Consuming live foods helps us to feel alive.

The word 'fruit' derives from a word meaning "joy" and the word "vegetable" derives from a word meaning 'to grow.' When you eat fruits and vegetables, you're eating and taking in to your body the spirit of joy and growth - life! And remember, you are what you eat!

You would be very wise to refrain from eating meat - dead, slaughtered animal flesh. Considering the conditions of the animals bred here in the U.S. who are depressed as hell, is it any wonder so many Americans are depressed? Again, you are what you eat. How are you going to eat depressed animals and not end up depressed yourself?

Refrain from taking harmful and dangerous pharmaceutical drugs called antidepressants. These things will kill you! Pharmaceutical grade antidepressants have been shown to induce suicidal thoughts and tendencies in people who consume them. Depression is not caused by a pill and thus will not be solved or cured by a pill. Depression greatly deals with, but is not exclusive to, the human nervous system and no part of your nervous system is made up of Valium or Prozac, so when you are depressed, you do not have a Valium or Prozac deficiency going on with your nervous system.

In all due honesty, the overwhelming majority of Americans are suicidal. For real! What do you call constantly consuming the SAD (Standard American Diet)? Constantly eating meat, constantly eating dairy products, constantly taking pharmaceutical drugs, constantly taking illegal drugs, constantly drinking alcohol or liquor, constantly having sex with strangers you just met and hardly know (and without protection, for many individuals); constantly applying toxic chemicals to our bodies, constantly smoking cigarettes, constantly talking on cell phones (and frying the tissues of our brain), constantly cooking food in microwave ovens, etc.

In America, if you are killing yourself slowly, you are normal, but if you want to speed up the death by shooting yourself in the head or overdosing on some medication pills, you are now sick and require clinical help or psychiatric care. Funny but true!

Nervine herbs positively affect the nervous system, which can be helpful for ending depression. Great nervine herbs include Kava Kava, Jatamansi, Valerian Root, Linden Flower, Passionflower, Lavender Flower, Catnip, Skullcap, St. John's Wort, and Chamomile to name a few. These can be consumed in capsule form, liquid extract, or tea form.

Essential oils are also helpful, the ones with an affinity for the nervous system, which include: Lavender, Neroli, Rose, Bergamot, Chamomile, Champaca, Sandalwood, Frankincense, May Chang, Orange, Mandarin, and Linden.

Crystal and gemstones are very helpful tools in healing from depression. Good stones/crystals to use include: Lepidolite, Agate (various kinds), Kunzite, Lapis Lazuli, Amber, Idocrase, Citrine, Apatite, Iron Pyrite, Jet, and Ametrine. By far, lepidolite (pink and purple) is the best stones for healing depression because of its natural lithium content.

Here's some trivia for you: the soda beverage '7-Up' used to contain lithium as an original ingredient. 7-Up got its name from the fact that it originally contained seven ingredients, with the seventh ingredient being 'lithium,' a drug that gave you an "upper" effect, hence the name '7-Up.' Like the cocaine in Coca Cola, lithium was eventually removed from 7-Up.

Dherbs.Com compounds that can help with ending depression include Full Body Detox, Nerves Formula, Nerves Tea, Anti-Depression Elixir, Elation Inspirant, Central Nervous System Formula, Brain Tuner, and Liver and Gallbladder Formula.

We are also introducing an Anti-Depression Cleanse before year's end as we feel this cleanse is very necessary.

You will find that suicides are highest in industrial nations, lands of materiality, CONSUMERISM! Without a doubt the United States has to rank first. It's easy to lose your soul here in this land. It happens all the time.

Feed your spiritual side (and don't confuse spiritual with religious). A lot of religious folk are very suicidal and many have committed suicide.

Perform deep breathing exercises, or yoga. This exercise helps us to remove pent up, stagnant, and stale energy.

Do not lie in bed all day. Get up! Move around! Do something! Occupy your mind. Stretch, jog, go swimming, or hiking! DO SOMETHING!

Whatever the thing may be, FORGIVE YOURSELF. It doesn't matter what it is that you have done or was done unto you. Release it! Let it go! Forgive yourself and be free! Let go and let God!

Release the grief! Remove the fear! Release the guilt and shame! These are all illusions predicated upon perceptions.

Meditate and pray! They go hand in hand. Religious people (like Christians, Jews, and Muslims) pray all the time but many are still in the dark and life is still depressing to many of them.

When I ask these people: "Do you meditate?" most reply in the negative. See, what they don't know is this: prayer is asking and meditation is receiving. That's why the two go hand in hand. If you're going to ask God for something then you need to still and silence yourself to hear the answer.

Though times may get dark, you must understand that all life starts in darkness. Darkness is not bad at all. Without darkness we'd have no light. Light is dependent upon darkness. Darkness and light work together.

Remember this, despite the darkness that covers our earth, the moon always shines her light in the darkness. Now the light of the moon is not her own. The moonlight is the reflection of the sunlight cast upon the moon. This is a glorious sign for us who feel that only darkness or dark days is the daily reality for us. No matter how dark, we are always given a sign via the moonlight that the sun is there and will soon rise (though it's really not rising per se) removing the blanket of darkness (which is just a period of initiation, seeds of a new life taking root. Well, the same thing holds true for your life. You have to hold on because change is coming. It always is! Believe it! Expect it! You can't get or receive what you are not expecting. Anticipate and expect good times and things and they will come. Guaranteed! It's a natural law.

Dark days don't always last (and again, not that dark days are bad or negative). Trouble doesn't always last. A person like me sees and converts trouble into opportunity that means choices, choices to improve my life, condition, and circumstances.

Make sure that if and when you are depressed that you only listen to uplifting or inspirational and motivational music. I find gospel and new age music very uplifting. Even go to sleep listening to this kind of music. Make sure to listen to this kind of music repeatedly and consistently, consciously programming yourself.

Also, watch funny movies, comedies! Laugh, laugh, laugh! Laughter truly is good medicine.

Think funny thoughts. I do this all the time despite never being depressed. I love to laugh and I laugh from my 2ndchakra (belly). My laughs are very contagious.

Make sure you only talk to positive and uplifting people too. Do not talk to other depressing people or Cassandras, for they will only add more fuel to your fire (of depression) and you don't need this.

Just remember, Dear Reader, regardless of what anybody else says or thinks, your life does have value. No life is valueless! None! You do mean a lot and something to this world and the world does need you. You play an integral part in the balance of things here on the planet. Your life does have purpose! Yes, there is purpose to your life even though you may not know what it is right now. It is your duty to find out